one plus one is less than three

Monday, June 16, 2003:

hmm..so i was told that people dont' know how i really feel because i'm too happy? that's an interesting prediciment...the thing is, i dont' feel i have the right to complain to anyone, or the need to. i tend to put things that bother me in the back of my head and not worry about them, mainly because i'm bothered by things i can't control and i fi can't control them, why worry? sure stuff hurts. sure stuff makes me sad. sure stuff bothers me. but that wont' happen, if i just refuse to think about it. i'd like nothing more than a best friend to whom i can tell all these things. a brother in christ who would understand me. mebbe i'll find one in college. until then, i'll just keep on smiling and not worrying because i truly see no point in stressing over that which i cannot control. yep. it's not like my smiles are fake or anything. when i smile, i'm actually happy. but that doesn't mean there's nothing that bothers me. i feel repetivite. i will now stop typing. thanks for reading. peace out.


Sam // 2:25 AM

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