one plus one is less than three
Saturday, December 14, 2002:
I am a heart shaped armadillo
Sam // 12:56 AM
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things sam has learned today/yesterday:
#1. dont' play more than an hour of bball on a bad ankle
#2: i am a geek not a nerd (though i'd like to debate that strongly)
#3: i'm creatively evil
#4: i don't need a boyfriend
#5: I am unsure as to whether or not I have failed a class in the past two years (does calc count? please respond)
#7 I'm pretty smart, maybe even smarter than average. If I work hard (like that'll ever happen) Icould be a rocket scientist or a chemical engineer, but I might just relax a bit and be okay with whatever my best is, too.
#8: My goodbyes are freaking long... sorry bout that...
good night all
Sam // 12:44 AM
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Monday, December 09, 2002:
I'm a Gin & Tonic, discover your ALcoHoLiC personality!
You're a Gin & Tonic! Smart, but mellow you let conversation come to you
Sam // 6:30 PM
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Sunday, December 08, 2002:
At this time you are feeling 'uptight' and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been 'hard done by' and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. You are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn't too different.
You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image in the eyes of others. You are looking for acknowledgement from your peers and those who come into your sphere of influence. You want to be liked, not for what people think of you but for what you really are.
At times all of us would like to be like the ostrich - to be able to bury our heads in the sand and let the rest of the world go by, but unfortunately you can't do just that - you have to face up to reality. A little peace and quiet would be most acceptable at this time but if only one could turn a blind eye to the problems of the day! Tomorrow is another day and who knows, it could be 'today' (not tomorrow) that could be the first day of the rest of your life!
You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.
You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.
You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.
Sam // 12:14 AM
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