one plus one is less than three
Saturday, October 19, 2002:
I'm frustrated with myself because I am unable to help the people I want to help.... feeling helpless sucks... for example... I know I SHOULD be able to help most people mat or chem or something... but I am unable to so when people ask me I feel obligated to help and yet am unable to.... leaving me feeling utterly frustrated with myself
Sam // 1:36 AM
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My stupid mouth
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see
She was offended
She said "well anyway..."
Just dying for a subject change
Oh, another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one soon
We bit our lips
She looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker
And I could see clearly
An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what just slipped out and what went wrong
Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one
I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me
Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now
One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it's all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked
I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire
Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one
I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me
Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now
Sam // 1:11 AM
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Today was but an average day... nothing happened in school.. got a 50/50 on my math presentation for the first time... went out to dinner with my mom and her friends, then went to Art's house where i chilled by watching Monsters Inc and chessing Dan... didn't really take that seriously... just trying new things and seeing where they would lead me... all my new things led me to being checkmated... couldn't even force the stale... boo... i'm in an introspecitve mood right now... and feeling semi depressed... knowing that you hurt one of your friends that you really do care about it sucks... and i need to learn to be more prudent with my jokes... that's twice in like 2 weeks that i've hurt ppl i care about, becuase i just say what's on my mind... looks like no movie this weekend which kinda sucks but that's alright.. good luck on PSATs 2morrow 2 anyone who is taking them... i am not feeling like me... bleh... oh well.. wow, first real blog in a long time... latez all and gl again
Sam // 12:14 AM
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Monday, October 14, 2002:
"PERFECT"
By Alanis Morissette
Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face
Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder
How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up?
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet
Be a good girl
You gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud
I'll live through you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him, compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem? Why are you crying?
Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy
We'll love you just the way you are...
If you're perfect
Sam // 1:03 AM
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A random review of what I'm studying at the moment
dn/dt - kn = 0
dT/dt + kT = T sub m
mg-kv=mdv/dt
limiting velocity = mg/k
dQ/dt = be -f (Q/[v+et-ft)
fun fun
Sam // 12:00 AM
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Sunday, October 13, 2002:
You know at church on Friday I found out that one of my friends is failing Chem... and coincidentally there's this girl in his class that he thinks is really hot so I was teasing him about being distracted by her...because he's normally a smart guy and failing Chem I doesn't fit his character... that got me to thinking about.... ubernerds
Sam // 11:16 PM
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You can't each an old dog new tricks.
You're never too old to learn.
Which is it?
Sam // 1:17 AM
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